Sunday, December 23, 2007

IT'S OVER

"ITS OVER Jinnah! i think we have to break up. there is no other choice" said Shylaja. "but we can work it out. i agree your parents are strict and you cant go against them. i will never ask you to do so. you know that very well." Jinnah was pleading. "no! i cant go on with this relationship of ours because am well aware that my parents wont accept us. its over Jinnah. am sorry." Shylaja was straight. "then why the hell did you accept my proposal? when i proposed you i said we shall work out all our problems together. you agreed then. what happened now? am i a time pass for you? was it just a crush which has now vanished ? why are you doing this to me Shylaja?!!?! "cried Jinnah. " i love you Jinnah but i was wrong. its my mistake. i shouldn't have accepted your proposal. i have realized that we cant sort things out. i don't have the courage to face my parents. am sorry." Shylaja replied. saying this she walked from the table leaving behind only tears.it was raining outside. but it didn't bother her. she was completely drenched when she reached her bike. those tearful eyes saw her leave from the table , from the hotel ,from his life.

"wet she was all over; yet her heart is dry!!"
Jinnah thought to himself. a drop of tear fell from his eyes.

" dont cry Jinnah". it was Shylaja , Jinnah's colleague. she is new to his office. "i know you have gone through a lot. though you are my boss, as a friend am worried about you. we need you back. i need you back. i want the Jinnah who is ever sweet and caring. who has always stood by my side from day 1 here. past is something that should be kept past out thoughts. i don't want you to forget them but in the same time not think about them. you may not be great now. but for you to become great you need to start. so fight so hard that even fate accepts its defeat!" she saw his eyes undergo drastic changes as she spoke to him. she had always loved looking at his eyes. it had always been expressive. his stare was always infectious. she fell for them on the 1st day of her work.

" thanks Shylaja. i owe you 1." Jinnah replied bringing her back from her thoughts. he turned his eyes towards hers. looked straight at her. " i had been trying to say something for a long time now. because of this problem i couldn't bring myself to ....well you know."
his eyes WAS trying hard to look at her. he was afraid to look at her " what ll she think of me? don't do this Jinnah." " well say anything you want. i wont feel bad even if you are going to disgrace me .after all you wont say anything to that extreme ; wont you?" she smiled saying that " God!! why should she smile now??!??!! i can never escape from that smile of hers " "Shylaja ? ...err.. ahem .... what will be your reaction if i say i wanna spend the rest of my life with you? " she opened her mouth to say something but he hurried and added " before you say anything i wanna say few things. we are very good friends , yet whenever i talk to you i feel something more than friendship evolving. the comfort and peace i get when you are around is something i don't wanna miss. yes am selfish and an idiot. idiotic enough to love a person who's parents will never accept love marriage. i know am not a great guy. but i can try to be a good guy. i will...." "before you say anything further you should remember that i have always had a liking for Venkat. i can't forget him." Shylaja countered.

" i know and i know that you are trying to forget him. i have no right to force you. all am saying is am willing to wait for you. you are going to marry someone; why cant that be me? you have lots of years to think over it .am waiting. " Jinnah shed a drop of tears as he said this.

"why did she do this to me? i loved her more than myself, still i love her" "love.... love....

" i love you Jinnah." Shylaja said taking a seat opposite to him. there was a faint smile in her lips but her eyes showed a different story.before he could react she ensued " but don't start dreaming and enjoying yourself now. we have to face a lot of problems. my mother is understanding but that doesn't mean she ll accept us. and my father oh.... he is averse to love. we have to wait for a few years before we can talk about this to them. till then we shouldn't be seen socializing. do u know ? ..am not comfortable when around guys. you are the only guy i have been close to. but that doesn't mean i ll go out with you. and no ro-ma-nc.." before she could finish the word he leaned forward and kissed her.

" ha ha ha..." it was the laughter out of sadness. "am not comfortable when around guys." "cheater!" "you are the only guy i have been close to." "all lies! how can these girls speak so much lies? she faked her character. she boasted of the traits that weren't of hers!! she ..she..she..."

"I am sorry Jinnah. i am not the girl for you. i can't forget Venkat. last week he came back from banglore. after seeing him only i realized how much i loved him." Shylaja looked straight at Jinnah's eyes and broke the news. "I cant love you when i still have place for someone else in my heart. when i accepted your proposal i was in a dilemma. i did love you but i also liked him. i cannot be true to you Jinnah. it would be like cheating you. and even if you say you are going to wait for me i cant face my parents.
Its over Jinnah! i think we have to break up. there is no other choice" said Shylaja. "but we can work it out. i agree your parents are strict and you cant go against them. i will never ask you to do so. you know that very well." Jinnah was pleading. "no! i cant go on with this relationship of ours because am well aware that my parents wont accept us. its over Jinnah. am sorry." Shylaja was straight. "then why the hell did you accept my proposal? when i proposed you i said we shall work out all our problems together. you agreed then. what happened now? am i a time pass for you? was it just a crush which has now vanished? why are you doing this to me Shylaja?!!?! "cried Jinnah. " i love you Jinnah but i was wrong. its my mistake. i shouldn't have accepted your proposal. i have realized that we cant sort things out. i don't have the courage to face my parents. am sorry." saying this she walked out of the table. Jinnah saw the chair before him and slowly closed his eyes. because the most beautiful things in life are not seen but felt by heart. he wanted to remember her voice, feel her presence, the chair on which she was sitting the 1st time he saw her. the same chair when he proposed her. the same table when he kissed and finally the same place where she broke up with him today. she might have gone but her memories will always be with him.

[girr]...[phone vibrating] " hello? yah... temme man. assignment? yah its over. Shylaja is over. did yu get enough info about Kavitha? "


CREDITS : KAMAL HASSAN n ILLAYARAJA for the song"ne partha paarvai oru nandri" from the film -'HEY RAM'